Thinking outloud

It has been two and a half weeks since Josh left for BCT. It is a strange feeling that has been hard to explain to people. I don't hear from him often, I pretty much raise our son on my own, and I have to make all of the family decisions by myself, but, for the first time in our married lives, I feel that we are finally doing what we really want to do. I know it's weird, but it works for us. I found it was too difficult to take care of Caleb and still keep a job, so, I put in my notice at work. I am strangely okay with this. I have always wanted to work, but, now, with there not being a huge financial burden for us, I think that I need to spend more time with Caleb. He only has one year left at home, and for the rest of his life he has to go to school and work. Poor kid. So, I've decided to make this last year at home a memorable one. Since Josh left, every time I leave for work he kind of freaks out. He asks me over and over again when I'm gonna come back for him. So, I feel peace about that decision. The other decision is weather to stay here until Josh is done with all of his training which would be May, or move to Fort Gordon, GA or Cleveland, TN when he gets transferred to GA in January. After being apart these couple of weeks, I think the best think for our family is for me to move to TN because it is 4 hours from Josh's base in GA and he will only have weekends off. So, I won't be too far from him, but, I won't have to move to a completely different city and start all over again. I still have to figure out all of the logistics of moving across country again, but, I'm pretty confident I will be able to figure it all out. So, I guess thanks for letting me process my thoughts with you all. I need to bounce my ideas off someone! Anyway, we are doing pretty good and I know that things can only get better as time goes by and we get used to our new lifestyle.